Anyway if you don't know what I'm talking about, the 'final-version' of Jesus Is the Way isn't so final. He threw in a much more difficult intro for me to play and honestly I couldn't haha. So many notes! Well at least I learnt something from that, when playing, always try to find your notes close to each other i.e. don't be afraid to use the open strings too. It'll come in handy. Trust me.

Anyway on a more sad note, my grandma kinda hurt her back and really can't do much now without being in pain. Today I gave her a call and she couldn't help express her joy in me calling her. Well when I declined to go see her today due to my own selfish reasons, I was left pondering how much she really would love to see me come down to visit her. Honestly I felt bad at that moment. As though I'm being the evil grandchild of the family; not wanting to care for his own family.

Well I do not really have any good justifications for not being there with her but rather just did not felt like going. Well throughout the day I only could think of how I could pay her back. Maybe one of these days I would just drop by to help her out. Maybe do her chores or something. That'll be nice I think.

Actually my grandma didn't just hurt her back. She has two more fractures in her spinal cord. Notice how I said new? Yeah, she had two before these two more. I'm starting to regret how I didn't go see her.

I can't shake the feeling that she's already thinking of her final resting place. You know what I mean? I hope she isn't. I wouldn't want her to think of resting just yet. She doesn't even know Jesus yet. Well she knows, but like she's catholic so there's the whole Mary-thing going on. Which I shall not discuss here for the sake of peace.

I would definitely want my grandma to live her life to the fullest and not go out due to sickness or in pain. Maybe more ... Peacefully, that's the word.

Anyway on the brighter side, I bought a PS3 hehe. I am a happy man now. LOL no luh. But it's a piece of art! That machine can do nearly everything and anything! A worthy buy I must say and this is also the fact that it used to cost like 700-900 bucks just for the console. Any one fifa 11? Bring it on!

Uncle martin just made a new version of Jesus Is the Way and boy I hope I got it all down .. Lol. It's all about the groove eh. Hopefully the Fate Stay Night movie that I'm downloading would also go off without a hitch. It's like 13.4 GB and I'm almost towards the halfway mark, 5.3 GB. To suddenly loose connection now is almost like death. Lol.

Anyway gotta go!

This is ridiculous! I never knew the super rich in Singapore stays in Leedon road and their houses are ridiculously huge!

Man there are stone houses, doll houses, modern houses; there's even one which I suspect has an elevator for it's cars ...
One house looks just like the white house only thing it's not white and without the 'wings' by the

side. So it's more like the centre piece of the white house. Not only that, it has a gigantic fountain in front of the house and has a circular path for cars that goes round the fountain.

Never in my entire life I thought such buildings existed in Singapore; now I know.

Oh yeah I saw this car and now I'm in love with it. It's so wideeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I'm so getting this car when I grow up. Just watch.

Well ok four to be exact and countless for the HTC HD2. Which is my father's ultra laggy phone. More importantly there were software updates which honestly both our phones really need. Oh well at least I'm going to experience less bugs. I got some of the updates done but the most important of them all, the big ROM update, I can't download it!

My stupid internet connection keeps going off and on but the weird thing is my internet browsers are the only ones that are being affected! MSN goes on living even as my browsers experience gateway errors. Zzz.

Hopefully I can manage to download the big pack now. Fingers crossed!

I am desperate, I cannot rely on myself for I am weak and weary, lost and down. I am reaching out or am I? I want to reach out, yet I pull my own hand back.

I feel stained, tainted, unclean. I want to go back to those days of purity and innocence. How can I find my way back there? The path of righteousness is truly narrow. Often I find myself on the easy way out yet I desire to be on the other path. I need a way back to the other path.

Guide me back, please. I fear of spiralling out of control and into a web of deceit, darkness and sin. For it is not pleasing to You and out of love, I must overcome. My plea is that You give me the strength, wisdom and understanding to pull through. For it is not by my strength nor power but by Yours will I overcome.